Cleaning up…

So I come back from my all-too-needed spring break - I mean really needed, I just got over being really sick, in the middle of make-up work and tests, and finishing projects and tieing up lose ends in groups that I missed out on while not being able to communicate - and I return home with my messy clothing bag and all my bag of souveniers, clumping a new pile in my room.  Then I look at my hypothetical “to-do list” and I groan…  Then I notice something my friend gave me before I got sick.

My grin slowly crosses my face as I remember what it is…

It was an assortment of bible verses and other pages that he had interpreted and thought it might help me in my journey.  I feel silly as I look at it along so many other piles and stacks it sat with in my semi-organized room.  A good friend of mine once told me, “A clean desk-top is a sure sign of a messy desk-drawer.”  Sure enough, a clean man surely has dirty piles of clothes and dusty stacks of trinkets in his room.

I sat down to read them and came to realize my head was just as cluttered as my room.  When I was extremely sick, I would cry out in pain as the medications left my body as well as the infection.  I too felt God had left me.  If it were not for these pages, these excerpts and wise words, for this fellowship my friend so gave me, I would have lost my will to fight - anybody who had lost hope to fight would grasp for some other hope for them to last on, but when the will is gone little remains but an empty shell until enlightment occurs, or death.

This I must thank him for, weathor he speak his name or not is his business.  Now that you have heard what I’ve been up to, I must ask, “What clutters your head?”  Once you can answer me this, I would ask (or you may ask yourself), “Why haven’t you tried cleaning it up yet?”  Don’t make excuses or reasons, state the exact truth.  Take responsibility.

“I SCREWED UP!”  Its as simple as that.(I actually shouted this to myself when nobody was around!)  Once you admit it, I mean really admit it, you can get out your bible and start dusting and painting those old walls and furniture - even get out that shovel to clean away the filthy stuff that is so decayed you don’t know what it is.  Get it out as soon as you can.  Don’t hold on to it!  God promised us all the possesions we could ever ask or need in heaven, a mansion with hundreds of whatever we want and some things we never knew we would take acustom to.

John 14:1-3 

1″Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God^[a]; trust also in me. 2In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. 3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.

These clutters we hold on to - we may want now so we can live as we wish to in the future.  But, when it all comes down to it, everybody does not need all these things.  Clean out the clutter; that old blanket, the art project from 1st grade, those baseball cards, those catalogs and magazines, that dirty pile of clothes…  Its not just a task for children to clean their “room.” sometimes people (especially me) need to figure what they are doing, what they have, need and do not, and what is needed of them.

Its time to clean up.  For all of us children of God.

Now that it has taken me so long to finish this post, I’ve been reevaluating things and am pushing forth in my path.  I still have much to clean up, then again, don’t we all?